Not So New Beginnings

This blog has been a very very long time coming. I have this urge to document my life, I just never get around to doing it. I tell myself I'll do it over and over again, I even write stuff down, make a list, set goals, the whole nine yards...but alas it all amounts to nothing- as does everything else when not applied. I'm all talk to be honest, I never finish what I set my sights on doing, however passionate about it I may be. Its one of my biggest character flaws.

So I HAVE DECIDED, this here is my attempt to beat the laziness that has plagued me for too long and lead this very blog to come into creation post-maturely. I don't know how it will turn out but hey, its worth a try right?.....*awkward pause*...right?

I'm hoping to have some sort of consistence in my posting, training myself to break a habit.

First thing I'll need to do is set my sights pretty low, start off small maybe a post a month that way if I slack it won't be that noticeable. So let me test the waters so to speak

Its crossed my mind that the reason I always end up not blogging is quite simply because I'm just not good at it. It honestly might just be that I'm not cut out for writing and I'm just pushing it. I mean I look at some blogs and I'm like, "Why do I even try?"

 Of course one could argue that I haven't actually TRIED. Doth thou see-eth my conundrum? 

But what can I say, the urm...heart wants what it wants and this heart here *points at chest* wants this brain *points at head* to get all the stuff it churns up into thoughts to materialise somehow, preferably by putting it all up on some obscure blog.

THEREFORE, SO what I'm not good at it, so what NO ONE will EVER read this blog, so what I'm probably going to end up doing two posts in a year

I'M DOING IT AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS

Now if only I can get my laptop to live long enough for me to do something substantial and hopefully not have it serve as an excuse for my laziness

we have a complicated relationship, my laptop and I

On a lighter note, I pity anyone who ACTUALLY endeavors to reading these, you probably can't tell in this post what with all the gifs and memes but I'm pretty verbose. I mean...I just used a whole post to talk about how I want to write, I've previously been too lazy and now I'm going to fight said laziness. The ton of unnecessary gifs and meme is to cover up the fact that I'm not funny and to make the post seem fuller

And with that ladies and gents,